I have been thinking, as I expect many do when they reach my point in life, about the shape of my past. What was good, what wasn't, the good times, the hard times, the lovers, child, friends, acquaintances, enemies old and new - that style of thing.
What struck me was this.
It was only three years ago that it all started to change. Before that - well ....... least to say it wasn't as much fun as what has come after and we shall just leave it at that. It wasn't that my circumstances had massively improved, nothing in my external environment got better (quite the opposite). What had changed, quite simply, was me.
As I write this, I am listening to some great house music, specifically: Eddy meets Yannah, Reach The Sky, Reel People, the main mix. For those few passersby who might not know me personally, in another part of my life I am a house DJ. Something else that really started three years ago. I am a mix DJ - for me there is only one greater solitary passion than the words expressed here. It's making, mixing, playing, listening to and dancing to house music. It's a feeling. When I balance two pieces of this wonderful, soulful, polyrhythmic, loving genre of music together successfully, riding the groove, there is a joy that fills me like no other. I used to say that the only time I ever really felt free was when I am playing. I am glad to say that after recent events that is no longer the case. I am free.
The lyric of this track is significant to this tale. I always loved the tune but something in the lyric always puzzled me. There is a line that states, without irony, "there is a superhero in all of us". I never really understood that until recently and, for what my opinion may be worth, I now think the writer was referring to that part of the human soul which is capable of giving and receiving apparently limitless love.
A friend recently reminded me of a mutual conversation some months ago, and I quote her words: "TRYING to be a good person MAKES you a good person." While this may sound trite there is also a deep truth to it. The act of trying is what makes you a better person. It's like life, trying. It's not a destination. Its a journey.
To anyone reading who hasn't tried this ............ you might want to give it a shot.
